Take Me as I Am

So...

I haven't written in a while and I don't know why that is. I know I began a post explaining the specifics of the accident but then just stopped and deleted it. I guess I just haven't had much to say. Or for fear of being too random, I just didn't say anything at all. This entry will still be random but not quite as much

With graduation coming up in less than a month, it has made me think about the people around me. I love love love my group of friends that I hang around. We may not always get to hang out all the time but the time that is spent together is truly special. And I am going to miss that once I leave and go back home. That was one of the main reasons that I wanted to attend Johnson's grad program. Like Nelly Furtado asks, why must all good things come to an end? I guess that is the whole point of growing up. They say the friends that you make in college are going to be the ones that you keep for life. Personally, I hope that is true. I know I am not the best at staying in touch (even though the phone works both ways) but I do hope that there is still even a sliver of the friendships that I have now that I can still say I have at least five years from now.

On the other hand, I am really excited about graduation. This is the whole reason to go to school...to finish! I don't like making goals because I never feel like I will be able to attain them. But it feels good knowing that I will be able to finish a goal that my parents had for me (and I guess one that I secretly had for myself). I am excited to hear Dr. Eubanks speak at his final commencement ceremony. I am so happy to see the people that are coming for it: Vandy, Jr. Aunt Joyce, Aunt Tecee, my sister, Natalie and the fam, my parents, both grandmas, Krisjohn with his parents and his two brothers and his cousin (yep, Jayson will be here Sarah ), the women that work at the Women's Care Center, and my cousin Tony (he's 6"2', will be 21 in May, and is single...eh..eh...okay, yeah, I'm ridiculous) and maybe others that haven't told me yet. I am just really happy to see all the people who have supported me through all the years, through ups and downs, good and bad. All the people I just named plus the friends that I have here at school just make me thank God for his abundant giving and for loving me so much that he would put these people in my life.

A poem by Maya Angelou for Every Woman

Just some ramblings

I agree with Cana: Decisions are the worst, especially when you are indecisive. I have to make a decision about grad school sometime oh in the next week and I really have no idea which way I am leaning more towards.

I have been stressin myself out over the happenings of today's Black History Chapel. It is over and what do I feel: stressed still. I think that things went really good. I am so proud of everyone that had some part in it for all the hard work they put into it. Yet, even after our speaker spoke about unifying African American and Caucasians in church, there were still people that just didn't get the point of even having a spotlight on black history. News Flash: all we get is a month out of a year. The only time that we actually acknowledge it at this school is during a 50 minute chapel presentation ONE DAY out of that given month. It wouldn't kill people to be open minded and a little less self-centered.

I have always tried to make everyone else like me more and try to be friends with as many people as possible. I find that I am not making myself happy. I don't like feeling that my efforts are in vain. I don't like having things thrown back in my face.  I don't like not having the same respect and courtesy and willingness shown back to me. And people wonder why I don't open up to them...

Life is a gift

My sister sent me this in an e~mail.

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind. She
hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend because he was always there
for her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry
her boyfriend.
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she could see
everything, including her boyfriend.
So. her boyfriend then asked her, "now that you can see the world, will
you marry me?" The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend was
blind too, and refused to marry him.
Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her
saying. "Just take care of my eyes dear."

This is how human brain changes when our status changes. Only few remember
what life was before, and who's always been there even in the most painful
situations.

Life Is A Gift
Today before you think of saying an unkind word - Think of someone who
can't speak.

Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who
has nothing to eat.

Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's
crying out to God for a companion.

Today before you complain about life - Think of someone who went too early
to heaven.

Before you complain about your children - Think of someone who desires
children but they're barren.

Before you argue about your dirty house, someone didn't clean or sweep -
Think of the people who are living in the streets

Before whining about the distance you drive - Think of someone who walks
the same distance with their feet.

And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the
unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job.

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another -
Remember that not one of us is without sin and we all answer to one
maker.

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on your
face and thank God you're alive and still around.

Life is a gift, Live it, Enjoy it, Celebrate it, And fulfill it.

God Loves You!
(John 3:16-17)